Everything's in order in a black hole


4th Oct, 2014

I have a driving test next week..

I've been wanting to be able to drive for as long as I can remember. And now here I am, all grown up with a car on the drive and keys in my pocket. The only problem is the big red 'L' stuck to the front of my freedom machine. I want it gone, and next week is my oppertunity to get rid of it, as well as the passenger constantly arguing with me while I drive (sorry Dad).

I know I can drive, I have the knowledge and skill, but the one thing I am worried about is being worried. That sounds silly, but I know that if I'm too nervous I'm likely to screw something up and be kicking myself about it 20 minutes later thinking if only I could go back and not run that old lady over. Ok, maybe I'm not so likely to screw up that badly, at least I hope not! But my only concern is that I'll make some silly little mistake that I usually don't make and then the freedom of driving will be another few months, and £60 to retake the test away from me.

I've been looking up ways to not be nervous. Now don't get me wrong, I don't think I'll fail at all, I'm just worried about what will happen in those 40 minutes while a man with a fleurescent jacket makes notes about me in my passenger seat. I suppose it's only natural to be worried, but then again, you have to put things into perspective.

  • If I fail, I can take the test again, it isn't the end of the world
  • I know I can drive, so I don't have to worry about that
  • I'm not going to explode if I get something wrong (unless I drive off a cliff)

The thought of being able to get in my car, throw the L plates in the bin and drive off to wherever the hell I want to go with nobody telling me where to turn makes the hairs on the back of my head stand on edge. I REALLY want this.

I'm just going to try and be as chilled as I can about the whole thing. I know I can drive, it's not like I've started learning this week. I can do all my manouveres, no problem. I just have to go out there for 40 minutes and show a man that I can do that. Then I have my whole life ahead of me to do whatever. It's no biggie, just relax.. I want to enjoy this test, confident and happy!

Fingers crossed eh? ;)

"Don't think about 'what if I fail'. Concentrate on the positive, the negative will fend for itself."