Everything's in order in a black hole

Twenty one

28th Jan, 2018

I've never been quite sure why 21 is supposed to be a milestone in your life. The big one seems to be 18, and 20 is a nice round number, so why 21? Regardless of this, I, like most people have held 21 in my head as the big birthday, the age that old people always jokingly refer to as their age when asked, the so called 'prime of your life'.

So here I am, at 21, in just a few minutes when writing this. I think I'm finally ready to accept that I am now an adult for all intents and purposes. I pay bills, go to work, try to manage finances, read the news, use an iron (sometimes). All the boring stuff adults supposedly do. But on the inside, it still doesn't feel like 5 minutes since I was a kid learning to make my first application and dreaming of one day making the next facebook and living it up.

I am happy with where my life is at the moment, I think I'm doing well, I enjoy it day to day, there are ups and downs, but my career seems promising, I'm young, I have a lot to strive for and a lot of time to do it. Perhaps this is the prime of my life, and if that's the case, I should try to make the most of it.

I seem to have less time to do things I used to spend hours doing in the past, like playing video games. I buy games, look at them occasionally, but seldom actually play them. I guess staring at a screen for 8 hours at work puts me off doing the same when I get home from work. It's why I'm glad I have other hobbies like band to keep me going, looking at paper and blowing air down a bit of metal for a few hours is a welcome change to typing on a piece of plastic and staring at some LEDs for hours on end. And there's the social aspect too.

As I've mentioned before, probably my biggest fear is getting old too fast and looking back at what I could have done with my life. I want to do as much as I can, enjoy it and spend time with my family. Balancing a job and other commitments with seeing your family is difficult, this is something I've realised since moving out of my parents' house almost a year ago now. But it's so important to make time for people, it's definitely something I want to try and improve on, time management.

Well, here I am then, 21. Apparently it's all downhill from here, so I guess I'll make the most of it while it lasts. I'm sure it's not all that bad. I'm grateful for the wonderful people and opportunities I have in my life, I try to acknowledge how fortunate I am to have these things in this unfair world we live in, and I'll try and keep learning and getting better.

Stay tuned for another update in 21 more years, I'll let you know how it's going..